Confused...

These days i am feeling like i am the most confused person on this earth.Suddenly i am realizing that i have grown to a level where i have to make critical decisions that will affect my rest of life.Have i really grown enough??...m confused....Everyone around me is doing something or atleast planning or striving for something. i also planned for CAT, but that proved to be a disaster.May be my careless and always not enough motivated nature lead to that.Suddenly many things are coming to mind.Lot of things need to be done and sometimes that poor feeling that i am not capable enough. Am i really not capable enough???....m confused...
1.I want to study furthur......anything.....
2.I want to live near home but not at home.....NCR region...
3.I want at least one abroad trip.......UK or US.....
4.I want to book a living place for future....but where??..Can i manage it????
5.I dont want to marry for enough time....atleast not for 5-6 years more...any1 listenin to me??
6.I wanna have my own car..........Swift as my first car will do..
7.I will buy a laptop soon..........lenovo most probably....
8.I like technical side or managerial side..honestly i dont know....
9. I want a bigger playground to play everything......may b more resposibility at work...
10.I wanna play cricket regularly......once a week..

and many many more things.some big plans.i dont want to pen down those plans as sometimes they look stupid even to me.
Now the biggest challege is to prioritize all these wantings...i tried but could not get enough of it.Am i again confused in wat i want??

In my life i have realized so far that i am the biggest planner ( jaini u there??) and never carry or carried enough energy and motivation to execute my plans.

I need to do something with my energy level and thinking. But i know i work best when some emergency is there,When someone is there to poke me every now and then. i remember doing that whole syllabus of 6 months in 1 day during exams ...( No wonder.everyone did that.but i used to be( not always) the one of those privileged mechanichis who used to look at their syllabus first time only at exams....).still i managed to pass all exams and that too with dignity.( i feel so...)

Bunk the past.....i need to plan about my future and also carry enough motivation and energy to achieve my plans (...this is the most essential part..).... But what to do?.i dont know.again m confused. I AM THE BIGGEST PLANNER

Still i dont rem what i wrote above.i am totally CONFUSED now........i think spirituality is the key.... what to follow??........again confused........

I think i am discovering myself now more than anytime else.

Hope i will do something productive now.Amen.......